So... We didn't know quite what to expect and really didn't want to have any expectations for how our little girl (sorry...can't post her name either) would respond to us when we saw her for the first time. We just prayed. Prayed for her little heart that is probably so confused. Only God can give her a peace about what is happening in her life. Only God can know what all is going on in her little mind. Her eyes show a lot...she is so curious, and apprehensive, too.
She was very unsure of us at the beginning. I praise God that she is VERY loved and attached to her special mommies...one in particular. It was precious to see their bond. I longed for her to trust us...to know that we will always love her. But as a child of God, I respond the same way she did. Trusting the things that I KNOW and that are tangible. God is so trustworthy, but I had to learn that. I had to learn that He really is who He says He is. He really will do what He says He will do. And, I am still learning those things! So, today, I am drawn to the Lord more...to TRUST Him more. As I try to put myself in my little girls shoes and imagine what it is like to go through the things that she has gone through and the loss that she has experienced, I long for her to rest in our arms...I long to be Christ to her. I want her to know that our God is a Redeemer. And, I am so glad that she didn't trust us right away...that she doesn't give it away freely.
This trip has also left me amazed at the beauty of God's creation. Watching people in the airport from so many different places, all looking so different...so beautiful! God is so creative!
It has also left me amazed at God's presence in all of our lives. We are all doing different things, going different places. Some suffering, some worrying, some thankful, some angry, some unjust, some fighting on behalf of injustice, some sick, some healed, some joyful, and some with deep pain. He is there. Through it all. He knows it all, and He is with us. That has been amazing for me to ponder.
So we got to hang out with our little girl for a good while this morning, and towards the end, she interacted with us more and more. We got to go back in the afternoon, and God gave us some sweet moments of smiles and even laughter and fun times playing together. We got to see her little personality some while we just watched her interact. She is just so precious. So helpful and loving to the other kiddos.
This evening we got to go to a traditional Ethiopian restaurant and it was so much fun! Singing, dancing, and I even liked some of the food! :)
Tomorrow we get to spend most of the day with our little girl! I can't wait to get to know her some more!