****Sidenote: yes, I play these little games in my head! Before we got on the list in September, I dreamed that we got a referral the same day. That day came and went. No referral. I thought FOR SURE by the end of 2010. That day came and went. No referral. Maybe on the same day that my sweet niece is born! That day came and went. No referral. Here we are almost in April....You get the picture. ****
Literally the other day, I was talking to our case worker and she was asking how we were doing with the wait. My answer was, "Trusting in God's sovereignty, AND very surprised that it has been this long."
We are surprised.
And we are trusting.
We have already seen ways that we can understand that this wait was "best" for us. Eliana understands so much more now, and could quickly take to the role of "big sister." It will be an easier transition for us and our newest little one because the other kids are older. I know we will see the biggest reasons when we actually see and meet our child. It will be THAT SPECIFIC child that God has had for us. If we would have gotten a referral 5 months ago, it would have been a different child.
Some other things that I keep reminding myself of:
- We felt very led to Ethiopia
- We felt very led to our agency
- We trust our agency very much
- We felt very led to the "Positively Chosen" program